accounts from auj's progression through life

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princess is back in the game.

So I gave it all up, the game. I said that's it. I'm tired. I don't want ot date anymore. I'm taking a break.

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just then my phone rang and someone smooth talked me back in. For a moment. He said such sweeeeet things and looked just like Akoon. I was fooled and believed that getting in would be getting out. Then I was disappointed and i once again renounced my ways.

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just then I was thrown back in again. When a co-worker started working up the nerve to ask me out, I was looking over his shouolder at another beautiful specimen. I let him put his game on me, I let him take his break with me, I moved in on the game with steez and aimed to please my needs.

A man who once had stood over me and placed his hand on mine to show me how to let a record slide. He shook me to the core for a moment. Knew just what to put on to make me want him. I sat in his window, watching the sun grow. ten floors up, looking down. That morning I snuck out, forgot his name.

Six months later a familiar face. Lined up in the bank. A card was passed with his name and his website where his records play. I looked up. And I'll be looking down again in his window with nothing but his shirt on. Staring through a wall all glass pane, listening to smooth records he's playing.

That same day when he came in, the day after I dropped out from the game. A man came it and we started talking. Just as it happened the words popped in to my head "Is it hot in here?" when I realised "It's just me" "Or is it him?" the words never passed my lips but my facce was flushed and I looked up. It appears that I've got no choice. I'm playing again.

IN about a month I'll throw my art show. A thousand suitors will be knocking on the door to come in. My masquerade. I made it this way.

I used to be a good girl and my intentions still are.
And to tell you the truth, I'm still tired.

but meanwhile I've got lingerie, private fittings in the day. Fnacy dresses, expensive shoes. Pretty hearts on chains. Put perfume on but makeup's gone. favourite wines. Gewurztaminer, Cote du rhone. one tonight to find out. Important date tonight...with myself.

1:26 p.m. - 2008-06-18

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