accounts from auj's progression through life

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positive vibrations

put his hands on my waist, my neck, my leg, but not too high. Kissed me gently, softly. On my cheek, my mouth, my neck and my gently heaving chest, but not too low. In the back of an empty movie theatre. We couldn't see the sunny day outside from our dark matinee.

Something silly. I must be crazy. To go so far from home to see someone I barely know. Someone I met at a club.

I walked up to him one month ago and told him I had been looking at him all night, waiting for a chance to talk to him. He laughed and asked me how many guys I had said that to. When he understood my ingenuity, we went outside and stood in a corner. Talking and touching, a little. Kissing, a little. When I asked him to come to my place he turned me down. "Is he gay?" was the only thought I could conjure. I reminded myself of so many guys in the past when the words came out of my mouth. "I just wanna cuddle with you, I don't wanna have sex." It was true (but of course it would have lead to sex). He went his way, I went mine...bewildered.

The next week I got a call. "Where are you? I really wanted to see you tonight." So did I, but I was in bed already. Not in the mood to go out. Sweet sentiment anyways.

Conversations on the phone. Limited to talking. Long distance. Once in a while. Sweet sentiments.

Your smile, bright person. words that made me feel good.

good vibrations.

That's how I ended up in the movie theatre. ;)

12:37 a.m. - 2008-06-24

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