accounts from auj's progression through life

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Take a Leap..

So the choice came down to having that conversation, taking that risk of losing Caffre, or taking a trip as soon as possible.

I called him yesterday afternoon and told him that I'm coming to Trinidad.

I made him the happiest man alive he said as I listened to him scream and try to talk himself into composure. "Say it again really slowly?" He asked me. And as we wound down to our last minute on the phone card, all the sweetness that swept from in between his lips reminded me of why I'm going, not that I could forget.

I leave in May tentatively as I work out the details with work.

And I feel so relieved.

I can't explain to you the rosiness I feel creeping back up into my cheeks as I think about it.

I'm going to Trinidad.

Six months ago, the Tarot card reader on the street answered said she could answer one question for me. I didn't ask one question, instead I envisioned my life and tried to quiet my mind as I chose my cards. I didn't want to know anything too specific. She said a whole bunch of things. Something about a man in my life at the time. She said his problems were his and not mine. Roy fulfilled that card as time passed. She said something about my job. She said there would be a big change in my job, something behind the scenes and not at all what I was expecting. I applied for a job that I found on Craigslist on a whim a couple of months later, now I'm running an art gallery. The most important thing she said, it seemed, was the most elusive and really could have meant nothing, it was the way she said it and the chill that went down my spine as she did. "Oh, and ...six months." "Six months what?" "....I don't know....six months." "..Thank you." My cheeks glowed as I walked away.

and this is six months later.

5:19 p.m. - 2009-04-14

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