accounts from auj's progression through life

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body liguists

"Look at your eyes! I can barely see the colour."

"My pupils are dilated?"

I look away the same way I did when I'm sure he caught me looking at his crotch without realizing it. I can see him staring at different parts of my body, my neckline and the top of my chest, my eyes, my open hand.

"If you could change one thing about your life right now what would it be?"

I think really hard. I double check parts of my life. What am I missing? Everything seems like I'm happy with it and the words are about to come out of my mouth when it hits me. I turn bright red. I would have someone to kiss me sweetly and hold my hand and touch me gently. I turn to him and tell him "I can't tell you my answer to that question actually."

My mind keeps going back to that long gaze between his legs. He's sitting next to me with one leg crossed over the other knee, facing me. I probably bit my lip, I might've paused in conversation and stuttered, realized what i was doing and slowly and as casually as I could muster pulled my eyes in another direction.

1:02 a.m. - 2009-11-27

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